私のパブtym of my life

考试

2011-01-28T23:39:00.000-08:00

暑假了一个月，在家真的闷傻了

人总是那么奇怪，反反复复的
拥有时就不珍惜，失去时就特别的珍贵
就像我..

考试的时候多想要假期
想到每天都能早睡迟醒，过着游手好闲的日子
真是幸福!
但时间似乎又太长了
没有朋友的吵闹，又觉得一个月像一年那么难过

回想起来，考试那段时间，那种前所未有的压力
每晚都熬夜在客厅里苦读
背书背得双眼红肿了，想睡却不敢闭上眼
桌子上什么都没有，就只是乱成一团
都是书!!

读了都会脾气不好，背不进时就把纸揉成一团
他，也跟着我一起辛苦了
每天陪我读书读到天亮才能睡
不过，他比我幸福多了，因为玩弹弹堂就是他的力量
我呢，像枯萎的叶子，醒醒睡睡

睡觉的时候，都很不安心

一直想要做到最好

却怎么都斗不过爱睡的意念

不是握着书在桌子上趴着睡，就是赖在沙发上睡

哎，考试真累人!! :((

不过，压力又是努力的动力

没有了考试，怎么会有人去读书呢?

所以人都是为了考试而读书

而不是为了读书而考试..

2010-11-12T07:38:00.000-08:00

Down ! I try to talk to someone what is in my mind
But I cant even find a word to describe .
How can I present myself maybe just through blogging.
I locked myself in a room,cover myself with the blanket
This is the way I like to be when I was moody .

Crying is the best medicine, Since when ..
I learned to kept everything deeply in my heart?
Since when, I felt the pain but I face it alone?
I just want everyone to left me alone, because I don't know how to face it.
Where is my listener? NOT EVEN ONE !
pity yourself ,who care?

Miss my nanny suddenly, she is the only person.
Will hold me tight and wipe off my tears, calling me not to cry anymore.
I wanna go back to Kedah and visit her.
I wanna stay at there and share everything with my grandparents.

Grow up not that fun ,not like what I imagine.

No more simple life but there is challenging
No more laughter but there is responsibility
Please be mature and grow up!! I told myself.
There should be no more emo but be tough.

I argued with someone this morning,she felt that I has been neglected my studies
I don't care at my assignment at all ? Izit true?
Honestly I dint, but than maybe I had make a big mistake in the assignment.
Human are not always the prefect want, you know?
We are not a god,and we might also make a mistake.
At least I apologized, I admit maybe I really don't know the format
I admit maybe I'm not as hardworking as you

But everyone has their own way,it doesn't mean that I don't care
I swear I never simply done my assignment even once.
I do really mind and care what you said on me .
It's hurt me a lot. heart broken !

ARH, I hate myself being childish all the time.
When only I will learn from my lesson?
Where is my perception that don't rely on anyone?
Sigh, just stand up from where I fall and look forward
Sorry grandma,I didn't make my promise.
I didn't study hard and put on my effort.
I mess up my life and emo for silly things

I promise, I will grow up my mind and mentality
I will look everything to more wide range and willing to learn
So that one day, I will be able to tell you

"Grandma,I'm successful now."

对不起

2010-10-24T12:01:00.000-07:00

再也看不到你的头像在右下角.
再也看不到你24小时在线上
再也看不到你写的每一句话
再也听不见你吵着我说要出去

也好，这大概就是最好的结局了.
不会去超越那个已被隔开的界限
这就是唯一能够平衡的原地.
我们3个人之间的故事，只是回到原来的岗位
伤害零，也是我目前只想得到的答案.

不说不哭，也不吵不闹.
2个人之间真的不能做朋友，因为彼此伤让害过.
我从不要他原谅我，因为我知道是我错了
但那又怎样? 无能为力.
他问过我，难道我为了让他们的友情重来
我就可以放弃我的幸福吗？
我想都没有想的说“恩，是的。”

爱情没有了，还可以开始新的重来。
友情没有了，就怎么都找不回来.
好朋友更是不容易可以相遇而有的.
对不起，是我摧毁了一切.
只有我退出，就是十全的办法.

我不会再祝福你，因为你已经不需要听到
我不会再去烦你，因为你已经把我删除了
我不会再要你担心，因为我已经学会长大

2010-10-24T00:41:00.001-07:00

Have been so long time din't update my blog.
Miss the previous time always blogging.
Because that is just the only way for me to say out.
Currently felt so empty and helpless,but cant even find a listener.
No one will understand, even they are your friends.

Tears drop last night . I hide myself in a blanket.
Mind repeated the same question.
What can I do ? What is the right thing? What is the best ending ？
I wonder why everything happened so suddenly,just within this few days?
Depressed . And I don't like myself emo ing

I do really understand what I want now.
But I cant control what is happening around me .
No matter how,I might ruin their friendship.
I might hurt one of them .
How could I balance it? I have no idea.

Sorry for my lies , sorry that I hurt you deeply.
Even you don't mad or blame on me, But I do really felt so guilty.
For both of you.
Tears rolling and rolling. All was my mistake,my fault.
Please stay strong no matter how.
I don't expect that you might forgive me, but ..

At least don't sad for my anymore ,I don't worth it at all.
What I can do now is ..
Disappear from his life. Don't ever disturb him again.
No more text, no more concern, and no more rely on him .
Started my study ,I got many stuff to do
So that I can escape from everything.At least a moment also better than no.

With Homeworks. Assignment. Jobs. Projects pilled up
Many work to cope with.
So that is good right? No time to think nonsense.
Time to grow up:(
Anyway ,my eyes was swollen this morning ..AWWW
It looks so ugly, luckily mammi din't realized.

Is okay. I'm not a child anymore.
Facing some problems have to get use to it.
Always remember that, no one will accompany you along the way.
Please appreciate what you have now.
* Finally I know to spell correctly-Appreciate.
That's mean I know to be grateful from now on.

I don't need a prefect life,but I just want a simple life.
Have some Peace.
Lastly, still wanna apologize to you. Sorry !
I wish that one day, you might meet someone that better than me,hundred time .
Someone that could chill you, and bring happiness for you.
You are such a awesome person. No jokes.

friendship

2010-07-29T00:44:00.000-07:00

My life with different kind of friends
Im not emo-ing..hee this is just a simple sharing

1.In college:
Had been seeing all my friends everyday
M56 with hundred funny expression,
Jokes around ,playing around without any worries...

Seeing them concern about me, and cheers me up..
While I been drinking some alchohol,Twins stop me
While I was emo-ing again,Jamie send a "sayang" for me
While I was moody, EE advised me as a listener
While I was fine anough, Lrt fooling me around..

And we most enjoyed during English class with Harris
paw --> pao
snake --> snack
brinjal --> bridge ( In hokien both also pronounced as qio~ ==" )
yell ( spelling ) --> wai e iau iau
Pause--> Pauls
Themselves--> them sell !

See ! Lrt Cutest face with a funny pose

2. My ns life:
I spent my 2 months there..We had our activities together all the time
Gossip at night,eat and bath together...
Although just a short period but it will not be forgetten

Awwwww, miss u guys so much..No jokes
We have our own life and future to go on now.
But remember to keep in touch always.....=]
When is our next gathering ? Im waiting for..
Ryan, the organiser of Pulau Redang plan, was GONE..
* hope someone not to misunderstand again for I wrote him here.=]

Sharon, I might keep my promise to u !!
Attending your 18 birthday soon in "somewhere ' else ..hahha
Wen, you are invited too..

3. 4yu
The longest friendship for four of us..
Undeniably we argue for some silly things almost 1 year
When we were in form 5...
But time let it pass,we are undoubtedly best buds again

Although we ware seperated in different places
Our friendship is still unbreakable by time and distance
For Niing in Sp and Yun in Ipoh
Take care yourselves there , we will meet up again

Fate brought us together..
Thanks for being so supportive,understanding and accept what I am
I did many things to make myself feel better...
I really want a new me, a new life
I dont want to fail myself or anyone somemore

martini

2010-07-11T05:32:00.000-07:00

近来的生活变得很简单，很规律，也很平凡
虽然以前的感觉几乎忘掉了，但也不见得是坏事
老天给了我一个重来的机会，就算未来的路多远都要自己走。。

谢谢老是陪我熬夜读书的雯和Terence
谢谢只会不停对我说加油的小徒弟。。
谢谢每天准时提醒我晚餐时间的Orion Ryan..
谢谢每次刚好坐我旁边桌子的Marick
谢谢那个每天都会很关心我的Ahsa..
谢谢在class里天天都黏着我的Twins和EE...

你们让我的故事有了新的开始!!!。。

当上帝关上了你的门，他必定会再为你打开另一扇窗
失去一样东西，往好的方面看是另一种获得。。
哈哈，我想我最大的收获就是变得比以前开朗吧。
不开心的事就算只埋在心里，几天后也会消化掉。。
虽然没有了过去的他们，但至少现在的我还是很好

偶尔会想念我的啊麽公公，虽然很远的距离。。
只能在电话上传达对彼此的关心，但我知道。。
家人的这份爱，是唯一永远不会改变!
愿老天保佑他们每一天的每一分钟，都是幸福平安！

看吧都说了。。我的生活真的很普通又平凡了！！

Last week went to Martini Cafee ..
Well,seriously I had a great night before we went home..
I drank alot not for certain reason but because I was thirsty for sang
I have finished 3 botels of drinks....><

Anyway tomoro going class ...sigh **
Start Busying with lot of assgiment,homeworks,and exam again...
God plsss bless me...not to be so lazy..
Remember it:

"There is no short cut to achievement.Life requires through preparation and yourself"

No matter how worst is it, stil have to face it and be responsible for your future...
LIFE have to go on...**

2010-06-19T22:37:00.000-07:00

2010年6月17日：
终于18岁了，是我跨越人生的另一个阶段
第一次好多人陪我过生日，对我唱生日歌~不同的朋友庆祝了3次
这份感动就算过了再久，依然那么深刻

1st: sharon和rage在rb弄了生日派队给我。。
一个小蛋糕和惊喜收到evon，芸芸和婷盈的wiish...
伟也在旁边陪我合唱“祝我生日快乐”。。
有歌曲和朋友的陪伴，让这一切变得特别感动~

每一年我都会来rb庆祝，因为这里。。
曾经习惯是我度过了5次生日的地方
special Thankss to Sharon :
你是大老远的过来陪我，hugs **

希望这会是新的一个开始~
我的愿望很简单，就是希望我最爱的家人
公公婆婆都会很健康，我永远爱你们

♥

还有身边的每一个人，都会幸福开心
再贪心的要一个愿望，就是希望学业可以考好。
真的谢谢你们。。=）

2nd:
7点多Ryan就载我和sharon到烧烤会在Paradise Beach
那时有些阴天，下了几滴雨。。
大家都一直祈祷，希望老天爷可以休息一天不要下雨。
在海边很开心，除了可以吃自己烤的东西，
还追逐玩冰块。。

我和sharon就坐着看海，聊了很多的心事~
在我真的没有想到的情况下。。。12点准
ryan突然拿着很大的kitty蛋糕，和大家唱着生日歌走到我面前。。
点着蜡烛，要我许愿^^
真的很感动，都不知道应该要说什么了。。

看到他们都那么精心在计划着，要给我这样的一个惊喜
只差我没有哭出来。。
还收到小徒弟的5份kitty礼物和sharon的小杯子。。

一个晚上收下了每一个人的祝福
在海边度过一次最难忘的生日，这才是我18岁收到最好的礼物
那晚老天爷特别宽容，它没有下雨
才让我有机会感受到，原来自己那么幸福
身边还是有那么多关心和疼自己的朋友^^
我再次许了一次愿，我希望：

"Ns的朋友们不要忘记对方，不要忘记在营里的3个月
不管我们都在不同的角落。。这永远是专属于我们自己最美好的回忆。。”

谢谢sharon:你特地那么远也跑来陪我过生日
谢谢Ryan:你那明明就不难看又很可爱的蛋糕
谢谢小徒弟：你那5份的kitty礼物。。。
谢谢雯和伟康：回到家半夜会陪我闲聊一大堆
谢谢你们在场的每一个人：给我那么suprise的生日

3rd:
当天回到班上课，一进去大家都对着我唱生日歌
还是不同的3种版本。。
说真的，我又是一次感动和惊喜
因为真的没有想到，班上也会有人注意到是我生日^^

收下了每一个人的wish..EE还抱着我wish..
还是那个表情，感动到不懂应该怎么表示了。。。
M56，谢谢你们的蛋糕，还有送我那么好的惊喜
I wissh u guys..gud luck and all the best in out Pr study..
We are always the best ..Im greatful to know all of you ><>

Ns

2010-05-18T08:11:00.000-07:00

在营的第52天了，已经习惯着。。
第一天时有说不出口的害怕。。
不曾试过身边没有人陪伴的感觉
不曾只剩下自己一个人。。
不曾离开过自己最熟悉的家
3个月的时间，不长不短的，足以让我放掉一切吗？

答案?2个月后的今天我找到了，{可以}
从抱怨到喜欢，从喜欢到不舍得
这个营或许很平凡，很简单，一眼就望尽了
唯一最美的地方，大概是大门前的水湖了吧
打从一开始，我就不喜欢这里，想念~
想尽办法要逃离，甚至生病了宁愿不吃药来请假

直到开始懂了，一生中只有那么一次
一个独一无二的回忆和经验。。
你试过朋友像家人一样跟你住在一起吗？
那种感觉，超温馨的~
那句话：再苦都有我们在啊。。是我坚持下去的tenaga~
以后想念都不能重来了，所以我珍惜~

每天都会写写日记，那是我的习惯。。
想要记住每一刻，在未来的几年还能读着自己的日记
这本就是我的第4本-lifee diary~
karen呗，谢谢你和我一起完成我们的lifee diary。

我改变了，我学会更独立，更成熟
就连靠自己双手完成小小的任务都会有满满的成就感
自己铺好床铺，自己洗衣服，自己进班~
还有kkj第一次勇敢的给与自己的意见和想法
没有想到，4个都被接受了

虽然就是那么小小的感动却满足了我~！！

因为我看到别人的认同，看到了自己第一步的努力
在这里我学会了爱自己的家人~
原本我并不喜欢呆在佛学班，但没有选择
直到乖乖看完老师播了这个影片。。

好多人偷偷哭了，突然发现自己身为家的一份子
却没为家人付出些什么，只会不停的要~
“当你对着全世界的人喊爸爸妈咪时，永远只有一个人回应你”
妈咪生我，育我，养我，必须懂得感恩^^
在面对难题的关头想要放弃时，也会微笑着为自己加油了~

答案就是：我做到了。。

我想对你们说：
最爱的家人：永远身体健康，平安顺利
最爱的朋友：不需要太多的承诺，只需要把彼此放在心里
最爱的Qbii狗：你永远是我的宝贝**

转身

2010-04-30T07:07:00.000-07:00

当所有的包容和容忍到无法忍受的时候。。

这一切早该画下句点，停止承受不必要的煎熬

心碎了，宣布心死了，从此放弃，不再回首

既然你不懂珍惜，我又何必可惜？

如果你的故事变成了曾经，一切已经淡去，那么放手吧、

让自己的心灵，在痛苦的破碎中重获自由。

想通了，爱不在就放手，你应该知道该如何走下去，一个人的我依然会微笑。

如果想哭我自己会找地方，你不必担心我会弄湿你肩膀，

走在街上到处是陌生人，我想谁都不要同情的眼光

受一点伤并不是可怕的事，人就是这样才会愈来愈坚强

虽然它或许也是伤心的开始。。伤害的轮回总是一次又一次

是悲是喜终将都变成往事

Kem Ns

2010-04-04T01:16:00.000-07:00

I got selected for National Service NS~
No joke,the camp is located at Sg Bakap,Sri Impian...
At first i felt excited to go,may have alot of challenges there~
But Im so afraid with the cold water and always under the sun
The weather is killing me...gossh~
Sweating..suffering...tired~

Seriously,Im coward and afraid to talk to others at first
Everyone is a stranger to me,Im so quiet ..
I walked in with my luggage bag,ALONE ~And I had been arranged in dorm 6,Charlie ...
Anyway,I met Yi wen...she is a friggin niceee girl..
She show me the way to Medical,Hall and Logistik..

Kem Sri Impian:

Charlie:

My domb:

Apperaite it...And Luckily we were in the same domb!
Next,I met Chin..A girl that sleep opposite to me..
She looked cool and fear,hahaha~
Of cause,Yan ling..Sharon ..Mei fang and Lun~
Nice to meet u guyss....^^

After one week,i may suit myself there...
6.00-Wake up
6.30-roll call berkumpul
8.30-"Shit"exercise
2.30-Marching or KKJ
11.00-Roll call berkumpul
12.00-sleeeep

Me and Chin:

4 of Us :

Yiin :

Me with Class T :

Here is my timetable...By the way,I really learned alot
Teachers there tought me a lesson in Class Pembinaan Diri
They trained us to speak,and the way of communication
How to build up our self confident too..
To be true,i had learned about eye contact and change imposible to posible

Not only that,I learned independent too..
I can bath myself,wash my shirt without friends accompany
Even they different class with me,I can try to chat with others too!
I make it...CLAPS for me...
But my darker skin upsad me~sigh..**

Everyday activities just repeated,I hatee to layout my bad.
Im the slowest and always spent alot of time on it...
Pulling the bed sheat here and there....><
I hate marching tooo.....
My college intake On may 10...

Funny Yi wen :

Fatin and Su :

Chin and Lun:

Me :

I have to stay there for one month,31 day !
Nobody save me....GOD !
I promiseee...no matter how hard,I wil go through it...
Although at NS,i felt tired ...BUt at least Im happy there...

NO more problems in Penang...
NO more sadness for me there...
At camp,friends will near me...=) I wil love my camp one day..
BUt not now...*

study 2

2010-03-18T23:34:00.000-07:00

Surprisingly,you guys had gave me a lot of opinion for my study..
Thankss and I really apperiate for it..
Undeniably I felt touching too...for the support...
Somehow, I felt that i’m coward and afraid to make a choices...
I always hesitated and cant decide actually what i want..

But now i decided to give up the nursing course..
Maybe i m not really suit or intersted in nursing too
Hmm,can I ask more information about form6 study?
Izit form 6 in science stream very tough and hard?
Now i will prefer form 6 or Mass com. in college...
Either one...~

Advantage of Form 6:
1.I can have more time to think about my future
2.If i can handle with good result,maybe i can take the course i intersted in

Disadvantage of Form6:
1.Very tough and hard,need to put a lot of effort on it..
2.If i fail or dint did very well,i might waste all my time..

Advantage and disadvantage of Mass com,u can read at the previous post
So,Mass Com and form6,which want better..?
Accept my apology for being so irritating,sigh **
True,study is bothering me now...stressful~~suffocated ~

Nursing or Mass com

2010-03-15T08:11:00.000-07:00

College going intake at April,but i still cant make up my mind
I need you guys give me some opinion,Plsss..
Which course is better or suit me more.?
Which course that you all will prefer ?
I interesting in Nursing and Mass Communication

Advantage of Nursing:
1.Easy to find a job as a nurse
2.Can work in world wide and work as a Nurse at Oversea
3.The salary is higher because every hospital need nurse
4.Can learn more about Science knowledge and help others

Disadvantage of Nursing:
1.Have to do the cleaning process during practical
2.Work in Odd hour and no off day
3.Everyday have to face all the patient and the work is bored
4.Stressful and the work is challenging

Advantage of Mass communication:
1.Not so stressful,can work more relax and happy
2.No need to work in Odd hour
3.Challenge myself to overcome difficulties in communication
4.Establish good relationships with others

Disadvantage of Mass communication:
1.Worry hard to find job
2.Chances to work at oversea is lower compare to Nursing
3.High possibility salary is lower (*maybe)
4.Cant learn the Science knowledge( First Aid)

So,i have a very difficult decision as both courses..
I might like Mass Com more because...
The course is more interesting in terms of writing,editing picture,designing,etc.
But im afraid that when i graduate,im might not have a secure job !
So i will appreciate your feed back !=)

2010-03-10T22:06:00.000-08:00

Tears are dried up..there is still a fact..
i regretted so much because i knewt that i disappointed all of you..
Spm result was out..Just to study hard in future..Useless for sad
Accept my apologize for disappointed you..!

成绩揭晓了，该面对的不是你闭上眼。。
就能当作没事，没发生过
那一刻，我看着别人为成绩呼唤。。
看着别人脸上欣慰的笑容，我呢？
是该庆幸还是失望？

难过，我根本没有资格说
因为我没有尽力，因为我没有作到100分
从小妈咪就告诉我，就算拿不到100分，
只要不输给他，我就是赢了
我不懂，比较的意义何在。。

读书是为自己，还是为了别人给你的掌声？
输赢真的那么重要吗？
你失望，是因为我输了
我难过，是因为我看到你失望的眼神
我知道我做得不够好。。
我需要的是一句安慰鼓励，不是你的责备
告诉我，我让你丢脸了。。
告诉我，别人成绩好，我又算什么？

Spm result

2010-03-08T20:53:00.000-08:00

Last nght i went to the Siam Temple to pray
And i had make a draw..It said :
"Your present position is doutbful.
If you make up your mind and work hard,you may be successful in your work
However,your luck at the present time is rather bad.
In future you may get a better position and be prosperous,
But now,you may have to meet with some difficulties"

gossh ! What to do? freaaaaking moody currently !
Spm result coming out soon...
I cant make up my mind what course to study
I felt stressful and suffocated...
My family doubt my ability,grandpa said :
"You are not intersted in your study,always do what you like"

My aunt said:
"You just wasting your time on blogging,
dont even go find out the infromation,IRRESPONSIBLE"

My mum said :
"Your result worst,no one going to sponser you for futher study"

Well! I knew that i dissappointed all of you
But,please accepts,respects and believe my decision
Im scared because i already had a lesson
At least i wan to try...
You've to face it and overcome it when you meet with some difficulties

To be true that im afraid of my shity result
But that is a fact,no matter how worst is it..
I stil have to face it...Am i right?

beach and oxo

2010-03-05T20:25:00.000-08:00

Finally i updated my blog,quite lazy currently..
Had been going out often,and i was tired
I'll be grounded i think..haha..
Went out with her twice,went to gurney and beach
She helped me dress up,thankss alot!

We went for a movie with Louis,"Hot Summer Day"
Hmm truly dissepointed me...the movie just about..
5 couple in the city in love..and nothing special..
After that we went to beach...=)
This feeling wast extremely great,yeaah..i lovee beach

We were walking around and chit-chatted,
My mood was getting better,she told me all the time...
"You’ve to face it and overcome it that something you afraird of"
She taught me a lesson when we were on the beach
Alright im taking the advices...

She is loveable,sometime **
We took a stick and wrote our name on the sand
We were busy grabing alot of picture...
We also sat for rest and look others swam...
I enjoyed myself,no joke...and im satisfied with this kind of life
Come on !! you can make it,be optismitic..

Beach :

My name_yiin :

My shoes:

My foodstep:

Next,i had my dinner last night,with aunt and Kevin
We went to Oxo for drink..**
I love alcohol but i dont drink it always..
Even just a glass,my aunt or mum keep advised me..
gossh ~better be a good girl..hahaha~

I love because alcohol numbs us temporary
At least for that moment,you dont have any problems..
Frigging high ! happy...Am i right ?
But after that,we stil cant escape from the problems..sigh **
Example,i got selected in NS ! WTF?!

Tiger Beer:

We reached home almost twelve something..
tired ..=) nicee day...

new year

2010-02-22T05:41:00.000-08:00

Time goes quickly,New Year had passed
Not bad,get extra pocket money from relative
Hahaha..quite tired actually for visited everyone..
But im excited because i can back to Kedah
Had gathering with my beloved grandparents

I miss you all deeply....**
Well,during CNY i ate alot of junk food
Cant said NO to the food aspecially the potato chips..
I dint put on weight but im sicked finally...OMG~

This year i spend alot for my new year clothes..
I bought a dress from Nichii,dark black with a blue belt
But i dont even have chance to wear it...
Why?because chor 1 some of them pantang it..
You know,eldest attach importance to traditions..

shopping:

Cny clothes:

And what about valentine? this year..
I dont really have a nice Valentine day i think..
The most memorable Valentine was last year..=)
I had received the biggest Kitty and flower with monkeys
Someone accompanied me through one of the valentine ...
But not for this year..Cause i was in Kedah for chor 1...sigh **

Chor 3,having a steamboat at ahyi's house..
Met Caryn them,did not see her for a long time
Her hair is even longer now...heee..

Me and Caryn:

Lovee :

Lastly,wish everyone good luck and all the best for 2010 year !!
2010 woohoo .........**

be tough

2010-02-20T08:54:00.000-08:00

First,to Yeen:
Had a great time with you last night..**
It had been 3 years we dint hangout, but you stil the same
And the letter you wrote 7 years ago,hahaha~
Yea ! You was my best friend for the pass 7 year and the future too

Me and Yeen :

Next:to S:
Thanks you here,I found back my confidence because of you
You was a great listener and adviser...that always comforted me
I learned to apperiate and be an optimistic person
I told myself,i must be tough no matter how...

Before that,i was afraid of ignore..
I dont understand,why everyone so reality..
Friendship or love included too...
Everyone will come to you while they need an accompany
Or comforted them when they upset?

Why im always the one that try to remain all relation?
And just push me away easily while they dont need me
Come one,who guys can tel me WHY?
Til he told me be back myself ,be confidence...
And learn to be independence ..

Well,i listen to him...yeah that great....
Maybe i should take a step to go on my lifee
thankss for the advice..=)

Last, to XXX :
A shit person,called me by an unknown number..
why?because he break with his girlfriend
after that,he told me not to view his blog..he dont want any misunderstand
FINE ! he also betray me just because wana protect her
FU*K ...AM i a 24 hour 7-eleven?

You should know,this was not the first time...im blind and insane...
My god !how could you do this to me uh?
i hatee you,i really do...left me alone and get lost !!'
Im nice to you but doesnt mean that im stupid ~

回想

2010-02-17T09:39:00.000-08:00

先祝大家新年快乐happy cny !
还有情人节快乐喽，有情人的可以终成眷属
永远都那么幸福。。^^
这次新年气氛好像少了，但能和家人团聚的感觉不错
尤其是看到公公婆婆。。**

新年的气氛让我多了不同的感觉。
一下之间我已经18岁了，有点不可思议
看回过去，我经历了很多的事。
有掉眼泪的记忆，也有很美好的事
我开始懂得尝试很多的第一次。。

第一次一个人可以去做工。。
第一次没有朋友陪也可以到处去
我知道毕业后每个人都会有改变的阶段
而我总不能永远停留在原地，只望着同个世界
忙着追随将要流逝的一切

5S4 class :

For My friend:

友情？爱情？如果它够坚定，时间多长都不会冲淡的。。
还要谢谢mr A，把我骂醒了
如果不是你狠狠的把话说出来，我想。。
我大概不会知道，原来最相信的你也会背叛我
人与人之间，难道只剩下利用吗?

有事的时候就会找你，没事了就把你推开
很多人都是这样的。
而能让我信任聊心事的人就少了
谢谢你Q,这阵子你鼓励安慰我，真的很多

妈咪和阿姨考虑要把我送去新加坡读书
以前我犹豫，因为我怕没有朋友
也会舍不得这里，现在？
我倒很想去看看不一样的那里。。
想要放掉这里的一切，是个很好的机会吧？

明天和好友yeen reunion咯^^
期待~3年不见了。。
i hopee our relation stil that close =)

lastly ,happy chinese new year to all guys..woohoo~

gurney v han and jing

2010-02-06T04:43:00.000-08:00

6/2/2010:
headed to queenbay with some friendss..
watched"tooth fairy"
Cny is around the corner,we spent some time for shopping too
i just get 3 Cny clothes..my god...
i dont even buy a bag ,high heel or a watch...so rush~

we just kept walking around and i bought..
A kitty pink purse and leopard shirt..
loveee it so muuch..
i had already spend alomost rm 200 today..
but i felt i get nothing...hahha ~

money value is too small and hard to earn ..sigh*
of cause J also bough a dress cost rm 80+
trust me kay...?it really suit you...
dont keep asking Us for thousand time ..izit nice..
heeee..me and K had our dinner at Kim Gary

i stil order my favourite cheese baked rice..
yummy ! ..well...i had a great night again..^^

kim gary:

Our drinks:

cheese baked rice:

mee :

thankss K for fetched me homee around 6 something..
i promiseee..i sure wil fetch you back..
once i know how to drive...hahah~

2/1/2010:
headed to gurney with jing and Han
we watched a movie "da ri zi " yet we were late for 15 min
although we miss the front part.. but its really a great movieee..
heee after that we went to Manila Place for our dinner..
a small plate of spagetti costed expensive...

yet worth it..its delicious...
me n jing busy posting to the camera...and we took alot of picture
i havent have so much fun like today...=)
cause i lovee eating...

me and jing:

Me:

Spagetti:

Salad:

Bread:

after dinner,we went for sing K
chilled at at redbox and we were really high that night....
Shan drinks some alcohol but Han look more drunk then her
she sang and fooling around...
Han dont even drink but in fact she was most high..hahaha
fun !!! and thats really funny ....

look at their fuuny expression....sigh **
hoho~Jing gonna kill me...=)

our drinks:

my holiday

2010-02-06T02:58:00.000-08:00

wow,long time dint update my blog
some of you sure curious what im doing recently..hee
i had just stop my job at time square
the last day,me and kevin had a drink and chilled in BED
we order a Heineken beer and chocalate cookies ice blended

yummy~my favouriteee
thankss for it...i dont expect you will treat me...hahaha ~
i keep snatching away his beer..
cause scare he too high and drunk...=)
i not yet buy lifee insurance cause he going fetch me home..

this was the first time i came to BED,
loveee here muchx...hope the second time..

Heineken and Chocalate cookies:

Anti Smoking:

B.E.D

B.E.D

Next,i also headed to New World Park with friendss
Kalai was coming back from Ns for her thaipusm...
misss her so much...XD
we ate our dinner at Old Town..
we gossiped all the way and she told us her life at kem

i think she had a great time there...
But,i still not planning to go for my National Service..=)
times goes by so fast,she went there almost one month
take care urself there...dear...^^ see u again at Cny next week
glad to hear that u was enjoyed there..

i misss U:

Me and kalai:

cheer:

four of us:

Me and jing:

lovee u guys...i wil remember what you said
i trust my best friend so i hope they trust me too..
yea...we will remain the friendship forever..izit..?
take care urself there..dearrr...

abt me !

2010-02-01T08:00:00.000-08:00

1-大名: yiin
2- 生日: june 17
4-生日想拿到什么礼物:kitty collection
5-最近压力大的事: working
6-想做的事: clubbing
7-有没有喜欢的人: hmm..no gua
8-跟谁出去最幸福+快乐: hang out wv friends
9-如果你的好朋友吵架了,你会怎么做: ask them to stop it
10-最想和朋友去那里: genting and Kl
11-圣诞节想做什么: hav a big surprise
12-最想跟谁庆祝圣诞节: niing and someone i lovee
13-最近在做什么:hang out
14-有几个兄弟姐妹: 1
15-最近喜欢的一首英文/华文歌: never had a dream cum true
16-喜欢什么颜色: pinkk
17-上厕所会不会冲水: yea of course
18-喜欢男还是女生: heeee.....
19-最想大大声说什么: i wan forever 18 !!
20-半夜敢不敢上厕所: yea sure
21-你现在最恨谁: i thk no
22-现在喜欢做什么:study college
23-睡相好不好看 : mostly not..haha
24-现在的时间: 凌晨 1204
25-是否厌恨传给你这卷子的人: no
26-体重多少: 41kg
27-今天天气: yup..not bad
28-如果忙完了你最想做什么: hav a nice nap
29-失眠后会怎样: sms and chit chatted
30-你晚上睡觉会不会尿床: no
31-你晚上睡觉会不会流口水: no
32-你有没有吃过夜宵: seldom wor
33-近期开心的事: shopping wv frens
34-自由对你来说重要吗: vry vry importand....
35-你觉得在朋友当中谁最性感: no idea
36-你觉得你比较笨还是聪明: duno wor...
37-你比较喜欢爸爸还是妈妈: daddy
38-你现在最想看到谁: niing
39-你爱看戏吗: yea...i like it muchX
40-你敢向你讨厌的人说"我恨你吗?: of cause not
41-你打算几时结婚啊: din thk abt it
42-你喜欢你的生活吗: half half..
43-相信塔罗牌吗: no
44-睡觉前所做的事情: thinking dreaming
45-你的偶像: s.h.e + miKe he
46-你喜欢的季节: winter
47-最想去的地方: japan
48-最讨厌怎样的性格的人: promise but din make it
49-你会抽烟吗: no
50-你会喝酒吗: yea
51-你常哭吗: yea
52-你常笑吗: sumtime bah...
53-想睡到几点: 12++
54-朋友和情人你会选谁: friends
55-机会+命运你会选谁: chance
56-你很自恋吗: hahah..ya..i admit...
57-你有穿耳洞吗:yea
59-喜欢吃冰吗: yea
60-现在幸福吗: i dun thk so
61-最在乎谁: friends and my grandparents
62-房间里最重要的东西是什么: my kitty !
63-没有朋友你会怎么做: will fel empty~~
64-如果天使给你实现一个愿望,你想要什么: i hope can remail forever in our lifee...wont lost anything that we care much
65-这个问题废吗: no ah...
67-喜欢那个水果: orange
68-最怕人家问你什么: my private
69-喜欢下雪吗: yea
70-下辈子要做什么: be a rich person..muahaha
72-没事做你喜欢等人吗: i dun like it..and i wil angry...=)
73-你吃饱了没有？: hungry ing now...zzz

曾经的幸福

2010-01-30T10:03:00.000-08:00

761天里，你教过的每一句话。。我没有忘记。。
直到第一次有人告诉我，你做的一切是为了保护我
我宁愿相信他说的。。
你生气，是因为我不懂得照顾自己
你失望，是因为我在面对选择，我的犹豫

照片里的你笑得很幸福，我知道你拥有了
我曾经给不到，做不到的简单。。
就算时间再久，回忆就是回忆
我懂它不可能冲淡的，即使只是触碰
画面还是会那样闪过，心里还是会感觉痛

看看以前写在玻璃上灰尘的承诺
那一句：我陪你走到永远
还是会微笑的承认，我曾经很幸福
谢谢你——————

My life

2010-01-23T07:39:00.000-08:00

PS:please continue read the below blog after this...
about my Qbi operation...hope she recover soon~

Since when..my life full of happiness again...?
i lovee my life...my friends..and my Qbii too..
i worked at Time square as a full time promoter after my spm
i mix with Yun and Monkey everyday...

although working time was boring...
went to the same place..by doing the same thing..
looked at the same shirt..and eat the same food everyday..
waffle for our dinner ...
but i really apperiate for their forgivness....

Me and Yun :

Our shoes:

Uncle And Aunty:

our work quite easy actually...we always do nothing...
walking around..playing cards..took video and some picture...
by the way,we often fooling around and chit-chated...
well..here was some photo that i took during my work time..

and For my Dear MONKEY:
im so sorry that i dint graB any photo with you..
so i cant upload..but im sure you wont mind la .heeee
IM here for you...i promise in promise....!!

Splendour :

Sweet and Smart:

Our cards:

our life..was simple..but i had a great time with them
i really have fun actually..i like it...
Especially when we stuck together and gossip non stop..
i love them as i always do....
hopefully if i cant escape my Ns...we will still that close..
i wanna trust that we will still come to each other..

because..true friends are difficult to find in our life...
i felt guilty for hurting both of you accidentally...
hope time will let everthing pass...and our friendship will never end !
i cheerish my simple lifeeee....

Qbi

2010-01-22T19:53:00.000-08:00

If god give me an oppunity to make a wish...
i will wish that..to remain forever in our life...
we should apperiate..thankful and cheerish what we have now..
Life is short..we can expect what will happen next..

Unfortunately,my dog Qbi was sick...
she went for operation last night..
she look frightened when she had an injection
she look hopeless and sad while we left her at clinic..
she was so active usually..but now..sat so quiet...><

goin to operation:

after operation :

be tough ! i trust you will be recover soon..
no matter spend how much..we will stil save you from danger..
thankss for all my friend ..for all the comfort and support..

doctor said Qbi already woke this morning..
but her heart beat was still weak..
had to depend oxygen tube to breathe...
be tough..~!god pleass bless her...

i miss you !

2010-01-04T05:31:00.000-08:00

last night..you went for your National Service...
Im so sorry for ...i cant wake at time..
i think this was the first time...we were seperated...
i cried badly...but i dint tell you....
i hope you go without worries...

The first day without you...really miss u so much..
my life now was totally empty and quite..
i miss the moment we went out together...
No doubts,i know deep down inside our heart...
we will still keeping the friendship bond strong

OUr Promise :

while both of us young :

we looks like twins:

dont forget me plsss....remember our promise..kay?
i realised time passed so fast after we had graduated..
we grew up together,you taught me alots
we share our things...we share our secret...
"its like a ....Twins.."

everyone knew that our relation was thats good....
my only best friend...always for you...dear....
i misss u deeply..till the time you back again...
im thankful to met you in my life....

Best wishes to you...My beloved friend

2010-01-02T05:56:00.000-08:00

yeaah...2010 was comiing....i was 18 and not under age anymore...
the past few year i was doin nothing..and meaningless
i will ensure new year,im not repeat the same mistake again.
2o1o is seems a new chapter and begining for our life...
its time to say goodbye to 17...=)

life is goin on...guysss....
hopefully everyone enjoy your new life...
happy new year..... !!

the last day of 2009,we headed to gurney for countdown
there was still so crowded ...lots of people..
me n niing wear mature and make up...wowwh...
so long din touch my cosmetic dy....heeee....
sooo excited..and we meet Yun and Monkey

Both of them were our old best friend while at Pcghs...
before that cause some misunderstand and argue alomost one year..
but...luckily...^^ last day of 2009...
we forgive each other and celebrate together...
misss the moment so much ..

fireworks very nice..and i was really apperiate for it...
4yu was coming back again...
thankss for the forgivness and everything...
hopefully...our relation will still remain that closer as last time
we had also took some photo together...'

after that we went to Dynasty..a ktv lounge and bar...
at first i stil wondering we cant go in anot..
luckly..they are somemore stil so welcome us...^^
saw spme group of people drinking there...
but...>< we dont even drink...=)

Yiin:

me and Niing:

me and Siin:

yun and me:

we went to niing house overnight...
play till 8am only slep..wonderful night....
last again..happy new year....***
tired sigh....__

Queenbay

2009-12-28T11:07:00.000-08:00

Held to Queenbay with Kevin for a movie today..
before that we played arcade and racing car with 2 Malay boy
i got 2nd at the last minute...grrh~!
Fine ! hahaha...i wil win back next time....
Well,we went for our movie at 4.30 "treasure hunter"

the story is about a group of mysterious guardians
have kept the map to the location safe, until a fierce rivalry erupts.
there is rumour of a buried treasure of unbelievable riches...

hmm.for me..i felt that the story is too bored...haha...
i think i dont intersted with this movie...
Honestly,i dont even understand what they acting...
after movie ,we bought ice-blended pure vanila and went to the beach..
it was quite far and unlucky raining somemore...ouhhhh.............
cant manage to enjoyed the sea view there.

we went home almost 9 something and had our dinner at home
tired sigh **for the long journey to walked home...haha !

Merry christmas

2009-12-25T20:51:00.000-08:00

christmas had over..=)just to upload some picture grab that night
new year eve coming soon,hahaha~
maybe wil less online and update blog,cause applying ...
first batch National Service~awhhh......
excited for 2010 a new year....life has to go on...!

well,Merry christmas to everyone...=)
i think u guys had receive a big present from Santa Clause too
teee hee... XD

christmas eve

2009-12-24T10:48:00.000-08:00

2008 xmas:

2008 chiristmas:
the most happiest christmas i ever past
i receive the biggest present and surprise last year,
i had a marvellous time althought time was short
my best friend and the one most care me were accompany me to over

Kitty:

Star:

2009 xmas:

2009 christmas:
i held to gurney met niing with hui,they organiser a primary farewell
hmm,of cause quite bored for me,by facing all the stanger..
hahaha~i totaly cant mix in their topic...
what they said,i cant understand....
while they walked together,i was behind alone...

Honestly,i felt i was ignorted again...zzzZ
so i went to find kylie and i bought a tshirt...heeee...
great that u was back girl..=) and thankss for accompany..
Me and Jing also watched a movie,Feng Yun 2
it was an sad ending,but it realy a great movie...intro to u guys..

gurney:

gurney:

Dynasty:

after that we sat at starbuck there,i met Kevin and he was abit drunk..
by the way,i saw Makiyo and Ling too...excited..teeheee XD
well,Niing went back suddenly because her brother was in hospital
Although stil many friends accompany me,but i felt empty...
i was really moody,arhhh no why...!
well,cant manage to celebrate christmas eve with a nice mood this year

we just walked around,and so crowded...hav a heavy traffic jam too
i have my christmas celebration with Niing for the past 3 year
Sadly,this year without her...felt weird =(
i think this was the most ~..sad.~ christmas eve for me!
Honestly,i dont enjoy myself....wuu !even my clubing plan was ruin too
we just sat at there and enjoyed the fireworks

i went home almost 2am,tired sigh **
issssssh,speachless...anyway,Merry christmas....

working

2009-12-23T07:55:00.000-08:00

well,after spm ,chee introduced all of us a part time job at Pisa
work as a packer,the salary is quite high so i decide to work
in first place,i can return the money i own...and !
truely,this was the 3rd time i worked,awww~ abit lazy...**
first day kinda pack too~alot of customer,alot of things to packed
busy man ! isssssh,no time for chit chatted...

i had scarifice my sleeping time...my holiday for working...
i think that not much different before SPM of after SPM
before,we need to study and prepare for our examination
after,im busy for working and ~genting and clubing plan was totaly ruin
honestly,lifes stil goin on....what to do? ><

met many new friends too...malay stuff and some same age as me...
although everyday hoping faster end the work...
muahaha,but glad to know all of you yea...
they are not only friendly,somemore talketive..**
until the last day,only manage to snap a few photo there...^^

well,by the way,wish everyone merry christmas yea..
enjoy it ~

friendship

2009-12-09T04:53:00.001-08:00

today have such a bad mood....!
acidentaly knew a truth that i hope i wil never know
how could i face it..? IDK...i dont know~
mayb that right~even believe hide a LIE
you couldnt imagine what kind of feel...dissepointed?hurts?

my mind was blank...laughter is the best medicine~
Jing told me...i wanna thankss Jing ,Kalai,and Lyn
for always be there when time got tough~
thankss for be my great adviser and listener...
maybe it was normal for someone neglected the important of a friends
after changing by time uh?

so?nothing we can do....frastuted?yup i admit....
i dont even wanna care anymore...we not to be really close this year...
how friendship break?
both friends wil think the other is busy...and will not contact
thinking maybe its disturbing,as time passes..
we start dint share our secret ....

even lie to each other.....
without believe...and we think that....
we stil can alive without each other.......maybe im not that important
here our friendshiip love wil converted to.........FAR

well,just ignore it ! and stop this topic......
finally i was graduate ...and i just finish my SPM ! hoho
excited that i no need go back to my school dy...
Here my life began......=)
yeaaaaaaaaah!

SPM

2009-11-29T01:06:00.000-08:00

Finally SPM had started at November 18...
i just can said,this was the suffering month for us...
evryday holding a book,busy revison for exam¬
OMG¬ hateee this kind of life
and i realised that i did alot of mistake in math,shittt XD

im getting lazier,dont felt to have the study mood
HAHA...=)
oh god !please help us to escape from this kind of life....!!
we stil left four more paper and we wil get our freedom
DONT STOP ME DO ANYTHING I WAN,no matter who are you

my room:

MY bed:

Sejarah:

lets talk about my add math paper,of cause !
the subject that i hate the most...
my mind was blank while i get the paper¬.issssh!
as usually,i almost fall asleep and i totaly duno how to answer it

nevermind!it had already past..!i just hope i can pass it...teehee
hope god bless me!and to all cadidates good luck in ur exam

graduation !

2009-11-13T22:47:00.000-08:00

Finally...i graduate !!but how come....
i have such a sad feeling..?
our graduation party held at Midland last week...
before we reach there,we took a rest at Niing house...
fooling around..busy finished our hand glove for performance

hmm!graduate party....!what i can say?
we somemore had performance tonight!OMG....
thats really nervous..but im sure..at last we wil try our best
to did it well....^^
while they played the video,everyone cried like hell...
hugs each other...touching**

evryone cried like hell:

With Mr.Yim:

Tears rolled down :

We three :

Niing Yiin Chee:

Always in our MInd:

i remember last year i told chee,i wil never cried...NEVER!
because while i transfer to this school...
everything was new for me...i dont have memory here..
i don have my beloved friend here...
Im totally alone in my class 4s4..quiet and shy...

but now..i had all my freiends beside...
friends means everything for me...i hope that...
i wil never graduate so soon~
chee and kalai cry the most,their tears rolled down easily...
Jun and Jing beside.busy comfort all of us...
what about me?try to..."tahan" !!!

but at last i cried badly too...while i hugs ahsa and niing
sad..really...nothing can describe my feeling that time
i wanna apologize to ahsa,told her that i felt guilty for hurting her last time
i wanna told niing,i apperiate she beside me along all the time
but i cant say anything..acept for crying...!

Me and Niing:

Me and Kalai

Me and Chee:

Me and Ahsa:

Me and Jun:

Me and Jing:

of cause,we also captured lots of picture that night...
with all our teacher and friends..!
i may miss all of them...i think....
perhaps after 30 years,i wil stil always recall it..
hmm..i think all of us most enjoyed while our turn to performance...
heee..we did it well..=) and everyone claps for us...yelling !~

Performance :

Forever:

Friends:

love all of u....hugs**

缺了一角的伤口

2009-10-17T03:56:00.000-07:00

A past.. i wondering what i was thinking this few day
it was so confusing..
i always assumed that..not easy to make it
tears welled up in my eyes...i cried badly
try not to depends on anyone again...'

i couldnt say anthing else..even a word
we walked past..act like nothing..
i realised that i not tough enough yet...
i was such a jerk...Uh!

someone that can read my mind easily ...
but so...it already past！unforgetable yet had a value
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3 of Carlsberg:

last night i drink some alcohol at yiyi house
headched*sigh **
damn useless..i drunk just after second tin of carslberg
aha ! PHQ called me that time...
she said wanna cum and drink tooo...wheeee...

i fall asleep around 5 somthing..
with a better mood ><

Daorea restaurant

2009-10-17T01:49:00.001-07:00

last week was SiHan sweet seventeen birthday
her mum treat us eat at Daorea korean restaurant
We ate BBQ chicken that night, delicious ..yummy *
total have 15 person,we enjoyed so much...
Some photo was taken too...we danced and fooling around uh...

Sihan looked shameful while danced infront all of us..
because her family was there too...wheee
Chee busy eating the food,niing and sasa took pic with others
and kalai keep observe the Korean manager...haha !!
i just sat there and chit-chatted with Yanyan :D

!2 of us :

DaoRea BBq:

yummy...BBQ chickem

The fried Egg **:

We grab photo inside the toilet,Yanyan so steam..
walked into boy toilet..funny...
Sasa and niing closed up the door..i chasing them the whole restaurant
OmG..enjoyed...i cheerish the time when we hang out together
after that Kalai took photo with that Korean manager..
everyone claps and shouted...so high...!
around 11 something,niing mum dropped me home..

felt tired..sigh**

Movie

2009-10-16T23:53:00.000-07:00

last week headed to gurney with niing
and i meet kylie there,almost one year i din see her
miss her alot..hugs* ~she look skiny and mature now..
couldnt regonise her while she tide up her hair
felt exicited...but i look messy right? [:

and i met Makiyo and Huix at S&J..
surprising...heee...cause never meet them at long time
everyone changed more gorgous now
after that dont know when can even we meet gain

Where got ghost?

8tv artist:

Gurney had some events too,some singer came here
8tv artist there too...wheeee~
Jane look charming...the actors in drama The Begining
crowded ...**
after that me and niing watched the move:where got ghost"

The movie consists of three horror tales,quite scare but funny too..
i enjoyed the third part,story about weird sightings happen at home
then i back home around 7pm somthing...

Moody

2009-09-24T21:52:00.000-07:00

recently felt mooody..what goin on?

not realy sure...i have no idea about it..

such a boring week at home..sigh*

last night share some secret wv chee~~

well,facing lots of problem and pressure nowadays..

but who to say?who wil understand me..?

no ones...kylie concern me all the night,adviced me what to do next

thanksss all of them try to be my good listener

i din expect for anything,just wan a simple life..

and i dont really care what happened in the past,let it be over..

im extinguish..emotional..and get angry since these few day

i felt guilty,and sorry about that...

hope everything will keep goin on as usual

anyway,school goin reopen again...iSSsshhh...

no eyes to see my add math result again,if i din get single digit

hoho,realy thanksss god !!

need to pray for it,gosssh....

i think i was the most weak in my class....add math

DROVE ME CRAZY...hard **

lucky day*

2009-09-21T01:04:00.000-07:00

last nite went to hai boey for dinner with my cousin
i love this place because it was imprinted in my mind
since i came here first time...
we can watching the sun dissapearing on the sandy beach
me and didi sit on the swings below a big tree.
we took alot of photo and the footprint in the sand

the food was tasty too..nice ~
and i meet niing there,excited uh !
luckily i woke up to wash hand ,haha if not i wil not see her there
we went to the beachside,draw on the sand with a stick ...

Sunset:

The Swing below the tree

Sunset:

My name:

L.O.V.E

NY:

Didi and cousin :

enjoyed there...after our dinner we saw fire works
that really look nice...niing saw it too although we already seprate
then,we went around explaned..
sat at the beachside again and chit chatted
watching the kids playing around with the bubble..
what about me? stare at the big sea...

this place make me recall some bad memories...
how i throw away the necklace?how i almost cry infornt of Cath
i stil remember it,on that day what happened....sigh**
well anyway,i stil love this place..
because the night view was pretty cool uh ..
those stupid memories doesnt effect it...ahah ~

i was in my circle :

Pig Kaii Chee:

the video :

Yiyi dropped me home around 12 something...
damn tired but kinda fun uh...
Hope one day yiyi fetch us to Starbuck...

i wanting for it,miss vanila milk so muchhhh~yummy *

ｅｘｃｈａｎｇｅ　ｌｏｖｅ

2009-09-20T01:55:00.000-07:00

holiday started,and selamat hari raya..hee**
everyday stayed at home...considering what to do next
but i spent almost the time on sleeping...
and watch again taiwan drama "exchange love"...
thats really a great show,althought it quite long already

my idol-mike he and rainie yang,i like them alot
and the drama"devil beside you too"wheee...
in the show,huo da as a "Devil Boy"
due to his reputation of pranks and rude attitude.
He enjoys bullying and making fun of Jia Di
and at last he slowly fell in love with her !

this drama is sweet and touching...!
me and niing everyday goin after the show at 3pm
that crazy uh ~

exchange love :

exchange love 2:

All the actors in the drama:

Ｉ　♥　Ｍｉｋｅ　Ｈｅ

nice day

2009-09-19T03:26:00.000-07:00

last night headed to gurney to watch"tsunami"
i was late and chee accompany me went there by bus
she said i was alone..that why she followed me..
haha!that was so touching...thanksss la...
u such a nice person..XD

we reached there at 1.10pm something
meet all of them at kim gary..13 person..excited uh..
yet we had our lunch there,kinda fun,cheerish **
chee and ada share the drinks
that was funny.,and we took the video..wheee~
to:chee..this is the surprise i wana give you XD

after that we went for the movie...is a disaster film should not missed...
the story about a super-tsunami is headed straight for Haeundae
The film focuses on the touching drama surrounding the main characters
who are connected to each other by intertwining relationships
and how they faced with the arrival of the giant waves.

it makes us laugh and cry...funny but its touching..
I am pretty sure that no one would leave with dry eyes!
hsu lyn was the one that cried the most..everyone looked at her
haha !she kept turn away her face ...
of cause,many of us cried too...

after the movie,jun and kalai had left earlier...

we went to toy r us,and just walked around
and this is the only photo that we took last night..XD
thats all,and everyone went home at 6 somthing
for tuition...gossshhh~
i may miss the time badly~while we hang out together

moody

2009-09-11T03:08:00.000-07:00

bad mood today..i was crying badly facing to my pc
i dont know what i cried for...
just because finish quarrel with my mum..?
or actually i felt hurt for something?
confusing..and i just kept crying...

whats going on to me uh?...
chee and ahsa was the first wan that comfort me
i pushed my wet hair aside and wipped off my tears
i felt really sad,..cant even describe from a word
my tears just rolled down easily....
i think..no one who really know that,what im thinking about?

i had been changed..i admit it...
last time i would share my secret to my friends
but not now..because no one wil understand....
i knew that im not tough enough...
that why i pretented that im really fine
at least i could give a sweet smile while infront of friends..

i wish i can face the problem that drove me crazy
no more arguing between us...
no more the person that worry and rushed to my house
i dont want it happened...but it happened too
i cant control anything happened around us..

ps: i dont need ur apologize...really...
because it already meaningless to me...

hmm.. and i had no idea about my family...
aspecially my mum...our relation was cold since i was form 2...
if thats my fault,im sorry being that imatture
my feelings?who cares?...

Im not yours

2009-09-06T20:32:00.000-07:00

last night i was considering night wanna do what
chated with niing yet someone mention about her
Again..i wondered why they couldnt stop ask me about her

the person,while i saw her i wil hide myself behind other wan
pretend that i did not see her...
the person,that reminded me to forgot..
and stopped living in the past...
even we stand that close...she was so near to me...
but we doesnt talk to each other...means what..?

WE END UP..no relation at all....
so ps: no story about her in my future again..plsss
she is stranger to me..from the moment...
i clicked to delete her in my memory...empty
and means nothing for me !
even though she was in my life for alomost 3 years...
i dont even wanna remember about her...

by the way...i no intersted to know what happend to you...
accident..?goin kl soon...?whatever...
i felt tired to hear ur bullshit explaination ..
so pleaes just stay apart from my life !!!

is touching

2009-09-06T19:29:00.000-07:00

saw a great article..posted up to share with everyone...^^
is touching too..what abortion is ?
that a letter wrote by a little girl..

Dear Mommy,

I am in Heaven now, sitting on Jesus' lap.

He loves me,for my heart has been broken.

i don't quite understand what has happened.

I was so excited when I began realizing my existence.

I was in a dark, yet comfortable place. I had fingers and toes.

i was pretty far along in my developing, yet not ready to leave my surroundings.

I spent most of my time thinking or sleeping.

Even from my earliest days, I felt a special bonding between you and me.

Sometimes I heard you crying . Sometimes you would yell or scream

I heard Daddy yelling back.

I was sad, and hoped you would be better soon.

I wondered why you cried so much. One day you cried almost all of the day.

I hurt for you. I couldn't imagine why you were so unhappy.

That same day, the most horrible thing happened.

A mean monster came into that warm, comfortable place I was in.

I was so scared, I began screaming, but you never once tried to help me.

Maybe you never heard me.

The monster got closer and closer as I was screaming and screaming,

Complete terror is all I felt.
Then the monster started ripping my arms off

it hurt so bad; the pain I can never explain.
It didn't stop. Oh, how I begged it to stop.
I screamed in horror as it ripped my leg off.
Though I was in such complete pain, I was dying.

I knew I would never see your face or hear you say how much you love me.
I wanted to make all your tears go away.
I had so many plans to make you happy.
Now I couldn't; all my dreams were shattered.
Though I was in utter pain and horror,above all...

I wanted more than anything to be your daughter.
No use now, for I was dying a painful death.
I could only imagine the terrible things that they had done to you.
I wanted to tell you that I love you before I was gone
but I didn't know the words you could understand.

And soon, I no longer had the breath to say them; I was dead.
I felt myself rising. I was being carried by a huge angel into a big beautiful place.
I was still crying, but the physical pain was gone.
The angel took me to Jesus and set me on His lap.

I asked Him what the thing was that killed me. He answered, "Abortion.
I don't know what abortion is;
guess that's the name of the monster.

to say that how much I wanted to be your little girl.
I tried very hard to live.
I had the will, but I couldn't; the monster was too powerful.
It sucked my arms and legs off and finally got all of me. It was impossible to live.
I just wanted you to know ,I didn't want to die.

I love you and I would hate for you to go through the kind of pain I did.
Please be careful.
Love, baby

hang out

2009-09-06T03:25:00.000-07:00

yesterday headed to pm bought a revision book..
before that waiting for QQ to try some shirt at D2
nothing to do there..bored...and i chated with Theng,whee...
she had straightened her hair,looks more pretty =)

after that we just walked around...
and QQ dropped me back at last...
thanksss...^^ now only i realised that how long..
we never hang out like this already...
im glad that we still remain as a friends...

at night,went for movie with chee and jing
before that,i saw her again while i passed by her shop..
the person..that i hope i wil never see her again
she sat beside me,but she doenst realised that i was there too

i hide myself behind chee,pretended that i did not see her
i told myself to forget and stopped living in the past
that why,even she was so near with me...
but i dont want to talk to her ...even just say a "hi"
that really hard for me...!

ps:well,no story about her again in my future...plss

lets say about the movie"the final destination”
is a horror film,about a guy while watching a race
has a premonition of a car crash which sends debris into the audience,
crushing some spectators and resulting in the stadium partially collapsing,
killing everyone present.

In a panic he convinces everyone to leave...
wow !thats a great movie...but scary...muahaha
jing looks shock...and chee keep quiet...what about me?
busy telling story to jing...^^

near 12 sumthing,chee only dropped me home...
i message 2 times to remimded her that i already reached home
thankss chee and her mammi..she was a kind person...heee
kinda tired too,headched**

merdeka eve

2009-08-31T04:38:00.000-07:00

last night was merdeka eve...headed to Qb for shopping
wow,thats great...just bought 2 pairs of shoes...
the salesgirl recommended me this and that
i tried a sport shoes with gold colour,but it doesnt suit me

after finished dinner around 9.30,i felt dissy..isssh !
yiyi took us around esplanade til batu maung...
inside the car,the music reminded me about her
i dont even want to think....since i decided to give up
i was such a jerk !

i hate her could affect me easily...
i hate everything..that can reminded me about her...
it already pass...izint?

whatever....
once again.happy merdeka to everyone !

happy bdae XOXO

2009-08-27T22:16:00.000-07:00

this month August a lot of friends birthday..=)
28/8 to my beloved dog xoxo-huiix
at here wanna wish u happy birthday my dear..hugss XD
dont thanksss me yet,last night was miao remimded me
heee...anyway..=)

hope you will enjoy this special day...
finally u was offically seventeen right now..
the best wishes from me: hope that the person u care-mR.Sxxx
wil know that..how much u wan her=)

holiday started too,after that we will have our trial exam !
OmGGGG~im wondering how weak my result..issshh
aspecially the subject i hate the most....NO IDEA...
hmmm..better rush up my add math...
if not i will really get a single digit for my marks...
and break my teacher record...shamefull ~haha ...

whole holiday stayed at home,get bored
we supposed to hang out with friends,gathering or chit chat....right?
but...NO way,NO such thing...and STOP imagine
cause....simple..we are form 5 student..
mammi wont allow us to go out,haiz...bored holiday i ever had
everyday heavy rain,and the only thing i can do is...

enjoy SLEEPINg...muahaha...!no plaining,no activities
act like a pig at home...so what about ur holiday..?
maybe wil seldom online to update my blog yea..

legally seventeen_her

2009-08-27T21:57:00.000-07:00

well,last night was her seventeen birthday...27/8
also a special day for us...remember?
and i wish her around 12.30am,i hope i was the first...
before that my hp was spoiled ,im wondering....
how i msg her...?but luckily...
at last my hp get well...this was the 3nd year...i wished her

but unfortunately,i knew that she was accident
i saw those picture....both hand and leg was injured
im such a jerk..really...pretending that i dont care...
anyway,we not belongs to each other anymore....
i counldnt say anything..even just a word or concern..

hope that u could take care urself...=) and recover soon~

before your birthday pass,stil left half an hour
you told me...your heart was pain cause what i had told you
my decide,to give up at last....

Im sorry about that....if u care,u can change the ending
If not,please just let me go...
once again,happy bithday to you =)
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of couse i wil not forget u too....happy birthday kylie...

thanksss for this 2 years,u always b patient to listen to my problem
u such a good listener and a caring friend ...
hope that after u graduate could move to penang...hee

im glad to hear that u said im the first wan that wished you...^^

of cause..you are important too me =)

lastly,happy birthday to you sis...

tagged by niing:

2009-08-27T19:37:00.000-07:00

遊戲規則：1、被點名的人在我空間將這篇文章轉載到自己空間中，然後在編輯，刪去我的答案，要在自己的Q空間裡寫下自己的答案，然後傳給其他人，列出個需要回答問題的人的名字，通知對方被點名了，被點名者不得拒絕回答問題，完成遊戲的人將會永遠得到大家的祝福。2 、這個人要在自己的Q空間裡註明是從哪裡接到問題的，並且再想一個題目傳給其他個人，讓幸福的遊戲繼續下去。3 、不能回傳，否則犯規！4 、被點到名字的人將得到大家的祝福，並且所有的美麗願望都會在不久後實現。5、請點10個朋友,不准不點，點完後請通知那10個老朋友他們被點！被点者： all my link =)

PART ONE:
. Q01、你的大名？yiin
Q02、你認為什麼才算是真正幸福 bside the person i care
Q03、你們覺得友情重要還是愛情重要，為什麼？friendship.cause no matter what happen,friends will alwis beside u
Q04、你相信天長地久? ？not really,cause everythg wil change by time...
Q06、你現在過得快樂麼？hmm ya..i apperiate what i have now
07、如果有秘密，你真的會做到坦白的告訴對方嗎？depend on it
Q08、喜歡小Baby嗎？of cause...
Q09、覺得友情是永遠的麼？yes,hoope soo...=)
Q10、希望自己多大結婚？duno..never think it b4..haha !
Q11、你會為他做自己從來不會做的事情？mayb i will do it...
Q12、你覺得女生捲髮好還是直發好？long n straight hair,i like it...
Q13、最想去哪裡旅遊？australia.japan taiwan
Q14、一輩子都不會忘記的事？the time we spent together,v friends n sumone
.Q15、如果愛一個人，是不是要拼命挽回他？i thk so,cause make sure ourslef wil never regret
Q16、看到天空你想起的第一個人是誰？nothing
Q17你會愛他一輩子麼？i cant promise...no one know what happen next,right?
Q18、喜歡你的人和你喜歡的人，你會選哪個？the one i love,of cause
Q19、你會以何種方式表現你對他（她）的愛？hmm...any way..
Q20、如果看到自己最愛的人熟睡在你面前你會做什麼？抱著他? heee...yes i wil
Q21、如果你想痛扁一個人，你希望那個人是？hope that no...
Q22、你會後悔過自己的決定嗎？yup..sumtime...bt what can i do?
Q23、現在最迷什麼？temporary din have yet...
Q24、你是好孩子嗎？no wor...=) i alwis drove my parents crazy,bt it was accidentaly
Q25、覺得愛情和麵包哪個重要？bread
Q26、如果你失戀了你會怎麼樣？fel sad,n try to get up soon although it takes time
Q27、如果你的BF（GF）經常不回家的話，你會怎樣？ask what the reason
hQ28、现在给你勇气，你最想做些什么事？change more mature,gorgous....muahahah

PART TWO :
. 01,是谁传给你这问卷呢?niing
02,你们认识多久呢?4 years
03、TA對你來說重要嗎？of cause ^^
04 TA的關係是？closes fren i ever had
05 TA的興趣是？shopping and fooling around include bullying me
06,你覺得TA的個性如何？not bad
07、TA在你心目中是幾分？heeeee.....i dun like to thk bout percen that relate to MATH
08、睡覺前第一件事？開風扇？喝水？reply all msg
09、你的偶像？s.h.e,he jun xiang,rainie,nicholas
10、你喜歡的季節？winter
11、你打工麼？temporary no
12、打工次數？2 times
13、你想去的國家？jepun,australia,taiwan
14、你討厭什麼樣的個性？show off themself,betrayer !
15、你會抽煙麼？no...
16、你會喝酒麼？yup but seldom..
17、你常哭麼？before that always cried but recently no
18、你常笑麼？sure when in school time
19、你喜歡去哪玩？beachside
20、去玩時喜歡自己一個人去麼？no...
21、是假日時你都睡到幾點？until 12 noon...i enjoy sleeping zzz
22、今天的天氣是？raining day
53、你們知道最遠的距離是什麽嗎？when she duno how much i care her

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★.PART THREE
. 54、我的BGM好听么？what that uh?
55、你的皮包里有什么说说吧. ic,discount card but without any picture
56、你生命中最重要的人是？my grandma,friends,lover
57、啥东西是你喜欢吃的呀？uncountable
58、现在有喜欢的人吗？not sure,haha
59、你還喜歡他(她)嗎? no more,jz let her go and let it pass
60、你觉得我坏吗？haha....ya

present_thanksss

2009-08-14T04:26:00.000-07:00

i had receive a big bdae present from my fren
thanksss jun n chee...
im surprise while i get the present,
a big plastic bag with two kitty bottle...

that so touching realy=)
everyone in class knew that me n niing are kitty fans...
love that present so muchzx...sometime..i felt that i was lucky
to have them as my fren..7 of us became closer
and now my life was happy...

kitty bottle they gave me:

my collection:

my friends :

but..did the time wil changes our friendship?
after graduate,we may have our own life...
we will less contact and get busy with our new life..
im surprising...i studied this scholl for 2 years
since i transfered schol at last year...
the first time i felt that,i hope the time will pass slowly~

anyway to all my friends,afer graduate...
please remember me...send me an email..
make a phone call..or even a message when you are free
i promised,i wil never forget all of u ^^

happy birthday babe

2009-08-14T04:13:00.000-07:00

to my dearest fren :niing
her bdae cuming soon,this sunday..
i truely hope everyone that view my blog,can help me to wish her
just click the comment below,or leave a wish at my chat box
thankssss....babe!

i wanna be the first,so one week ago i already wished her
haha !nobody win me yet....
dear,happy bdae to you...although the present not really expensive
but we hope you wil like it...
khor chin yin,the bdae girl on this sunday...

she is the famous ppk king among us "pang pui ki"
haha,and always bully me in the class during schol time
we keep argue with each other,playing and fight like cat and dog
well.she really drove me crazy..

but,she had been my best friends since 4 years ago..
anyway happy birthday and the best wishes for u.^^

my grandma was sick

2009-08-14T04:01:00.000-07:00

recently,my beloved grandama was in the hospital
cause by her heart problem...
i was really worry...
my pillow reminded me abt her,and i made a call to kedah

my aunt told me that grandma seemed to be getting worse
insted of recovering..by few day ago,she unfeeling well
bt at least now much better..
aunt told me that grandma was old,
afraid anything happen to her so decide let her stay in hospital

i try to persuade myself to cool down and take it easy
well this is bad news!
i pictured grandma stay in hospital alone,
i'd been so upset,i had to do something,but wad?
i quiet on the phone several seconds...

i thought grandma wasnt that serious,but my aunt told me
she almost faint sometime just i not realised
i promised to give the best thing for my grandparents
when i grow up one day...
but now?jz nooded..too upset to reply

看着自己最亲的家人躺在病床上，心里比谁都难受
那种害怕谁会懂。怕，真的怕。
看着最保护我的婆婆住院了，很心痛~
hope that grandma recover soon !

get lost

2009-08-02T00:38:00.000-07:00

just allow me to post last blog about her !
well,i knew that my friend dislike i mention this person-J
but..i have to say what i felt...
i wanna inform her:

"dont mesage me anymore..im better without u
never believe u again,go ahead with ur own life"

u doesnt need to explain to me anything..
we are not belongs to each other..
n i not interested what happened to u
sometime,i realised that i had been change alot
more mature thinking..and b able to independence

cause i made my choice..
i told myself not to b silly again,no confusion
i just wana be happy,be simple

and now my life much better !!

every time u said a word,i cant believe what u said
cause i don't know,which is true and false
I'm confusing with ur promise
again n again...
but i believe,everything happen for a reason

i learn from my lesson...
i stand up again from where i fall
hurt...but eventually i learn to trust no one but myself
u r alone,not because everyone betray u..
jz depends on how u treat other people with a right way
so,the last time i mention u in my blog

true friends

2009-08-01T05:57:00.000-07:00

u guy guess,who is she...?
a true friend, a gud listener ..
i wanna thanks her for being my closes fren almost 4 year
while i need her,she comfort me the most..

she support me all the time...til i get up..
she wipped off my tears while i crying...
we always spent our time gathering...
talked to each other,and she is the onli one...
never left me alone while i facing all those trouble

we met each other at our former school pcghs
i apperiate and really glad to knew her
although is simple,but its meaningful to me
of cause,we had misunderstand each other,quarrel..

but at last we apologize...
cauze we dont hope we end up like this..right?
i wil always remember
when the first week we juzt transfer to new schol-uhs

i cant suit yet,those insane teacher always scolded me
im new there,i cant catch up my studies
and i cried infront of her...
both of us silent for few minute,n she put her hand on my shoulder
she said:everything will be fine soon,dun cry ...

after that i went her house for revison n study together...
she teached me chemistry patiently....
then we started to get closer,
thanks for everything..seriously

same hair style :

we bought the same shirt :

we work at same place,we bought the same thing
we keep the same hair style too,act as twins =)
i cheerish the time we spent together..
at lost world,genting,homestay and even we went for
the jogging at botanical garden

i like the feel when u asked me not to give up
i enjoyed the moment when we reach the hill together
did u have the same feel as me...?

at botanical garden :

edited by :yiin

the picture we took together :

1&4- we went to genting highland during holiday
2&3-we hang out to gurney ^^
5 -we took this pic at G-hotel
6 -we went to lost world with our claassmate
7 -we work together during 2months holiday
8 -first time we went to queenbay

i started to feel grateful...
hard to make true friends and i enjoyed my school life
until i knew her when i form two =)
thanksss...

burnt_gurney

2009-07-31T03:04:00.000-07:00

hey guys,quite a tym no update my blog...
cause kinda busy recently...
last week i went gurney v niing n jun...
before that,i bath at niing mum new renovation shop..
u guy guess..?what happened to me...argh....

UNBELIEVABLE!!

i burnt my self,with hot water ,in a bathroom...
totally insane...
the heater spoiled..and..
i did not realised that the temperature raise to the highest
i burnt myself,a pain shot through my whole body,stomach

cant find a word to describe my pain..
will have a ugly scar?i wondered
niing n jun stood infront of me,v a shock expression
i knew that they worried abt me...
bt i jz nooded,too painful n upsad to reply

i rest for few minute,n we went for movie at gurney
unfortunately,the 3D movie "ice age"
ticket was sold out !issshhh.....
unlucky today..fine...we just bought normal ticket

we also went chopper board for our lunch
cheese baked rice,pasta n black pepper chicken rice
is one nice in Chopper Board.
The taste is very nice,Yummy Yummy…
i ordered a set, it comes with a ginseng tea as well..
haha !! my favorite !!

after that we walked around...
actually i felt painful every step i walked
but i pretend im fine...
thay was pretty cool,right...?haha !~!

and then we go to have our movie,
so finally i watched ice age..

This movie was amazing,although is cartoon
i enjoyed the movie...bt abit regret...
withot the 3D glasses...if not,im sure...
that wil be prefect =)

frenship

2009-07-24T03:03:00.000-07:00

jz a misunderstand,v had quarrel..
made a mistake,i lost sumone that care me so much
im such a loser !!
unbelievable,y u betray me again n again..?

not the first time i forgive u right..?
i could recall,remember what u done 2 urself
when u betray me first time..
u cut ur hand...n promise u wil never repeat ur mistake
so..?what u did now..?

jz because ur lover,u done that to me..
i hope all these didnt happen..
what can i do?there nothing to beg for...
we blame each other,no one wan to admit whose fault

at first,i get mad that realised u such a BETRAYER
til that day i saw my video..our pic that we took
so hurt...i couldnt angry anymore
could u imagine,a closes fren betray u...
how dissepointed？how frustrated???

i dun wan to mention it anymore...
i hope i can forget abt it...
we dint even try to explain to each other...
if a SORRY can make everything fine...
then i rather to apologize to u..

im sorry !
i dun hope we end up like this..

at here,i also wan thanksss to niing..
she is the wan support me all the time...
without you,i"ll not able to face all these problem
im glad ,really...from my heart..
u was a nice and true friend for me..^^

my skul life

2009-07-11T00:14:00.000-07:00

my life was so messy b4 that,bt nw..
it getting better...my skul life..goin to end soon
im goin to grauduate,stil left 5 months,aha !!
yeah,feeling great !....

after next year,im not under age anymore!
in class,teachers always warned us not to talk..
bt v dint wana listen to them...
v dream,chat n laugh as we like
my whole class was stubborn...teacher said that

sumtime while im not paying attention,
my add math teacher sure said:

"ooi fang yin pls pay attention !!"

arghhhh....i most hate this period..really...

she is insane,observe me most in class...
although she is a good add math teacher,bt i dun like her nw
i also dislike this subject,it difficults for me
i dont really understand what she is teaching...aha !
of course se,not only i was caught by teacher...

"elisa yeap,duduk baik baik la,jgn bercakap.."
"khor chin yin,asyik cermin diri di class,tak salin kah?"

what the hell..==
hoho,bm period,everyone behave lidat...
sum of them were sleeping...

monthly term exam start another 2 weeks
feeling stress..bt luckily exam does not cover many topics
need to go back to study mode again
so so so SAD....

whatever,wish everyone good luck all the way...
n do ur best..=)

a new life

2009-07-10T23:46:00.000-07:00

having a new life witot u anymur.
finally i could persuade myself to giv up...
altot sumtym the present u gav ,wil make me recall
it reminded me abt u...
bt im sure nw,i wil geting better witot u too..

u r stanger to me..
from the moment u clicked to delete me in ur fs..
i felt hurt...disepointed...
those memory...are empty...
u r the one decide to delete it..

fine..realy..i knew dat u r not cuming bek..
the promises u made..means for nth
u told me dat i can hate u..watever..
how frustrated how pain..

bt so how..?u wont feel it again...
u r not the one that wil care for me anymur..
i remember u crying n told me,u hate her ignore u..
no matter how u work hard,she doesnt matter
n now,u done dis to me...

what did i do wrong..?i dont understand....
must not to contact each other...?
whatever,i promise i wil disapear from ur life
go ahead...a life witot each other..

im not crying anymur..for u..
i hate it,n i dun wan to think abt that
especially while im alone at hum..
im tired...getting tired....

from now on,im gonna to delete the memories i had
i know it takes time,bt at least i try hard..
to stand up again...im nt sure whether i can do it
bt i trust that...i wil b able to start a new life

keep telling myself,everything wil b fine
n thankss for niing,ah sa,chuan n kylie..
u all r my gud listener,thanks for being my closes fren
while i need u al,at least u all stil beside me...
they support me all d tym ,until i get up..

that is so touching..
i dont wan b sad again..plssss.....
dont worry for me...i promise,i wil b fine soon,kay..?

b sinlge life...=)

apperiate what u had gave me all the time...
n thankss for everythg... i wishes u truely...
b hapie v ur new life too..
take care urslef by d way..=)

about her !

2009-07-05T04:26:00.000-07:00

jz alow me to finish d last post bout her
n i promise,i would let u go..
no mur u in my life,i thk i may fel hard
bt wad cn i do...?

i hope one day i wil never regret...
at least,i try my best..
at least,i cheerish d tym v u...
at least,i told u dat i care u so much,rite..?

remember dis..?u gave me as a present wen d xmas
i luv it so much..thanksss...
u came to my hs to surprise me...infront d door
wen i hug it at nite,i felt lucky to hav u
im so glad dat,im born in dis earth 2 connect v u..

wad bout dis..?u wrote 4 me...
u promised u wil never leave me alone,til ur heart stop
i believe,n i tot we would...
bt at lazt,it came to the end...
memory evrywhr,how could i forget abt u..?

i reli luv dis pic that v taken at beachside
i remember i told u,u look cutee wen u smile...
v plying..laughted together...
altot im afraid i wil lost u one day,bt...
at least now u was beside me,i told myself...

half year,i was happy...
u gave me everthg , u care me so much..
u promised,after my spm test,u wil bring us out 4 clubing
u promised,wen u get ur new car,u wil take us out
u promised,no matter how u wil never leave me alone ...

my valentine celebration,u acc me at gurney karaoke
n u r first person that gave me a present made by urself
a cup of star..i felt so touched..
im glad that i can spent my day v u..
altot is was simple,but it meaningful to me...thankss dear~

sumtym i wan u to know ,i get mad easily..
because i care..
but u felt tired to explain to me,im sory..
i doesnt mean that...to misunderstand u..

til now,i lost u...evethg ruined in my life..
fel meaningless...
crying badly every nite,facing to my wall...
stare on that kitty u gave me..
i felt..hurt...i duno wad can i say...

the sorry that i wrote for u wen apologize to u...

i cried easily...jz because of u...i never cry that b4..
it bcum far away..or even far apart..
bt..i wil alwis keep in mind..
i was empty now witot u,n u cant fel it anymore
even jz a moment,i hope..i can see u again...for 5 minute

i miss when u smiling to me n touched my head..
i miss when u wipped off my tear while i crying..
i miss the tym v spent together...
bt...its too late ！
we wil never be back again...

heart pain wen thinking of u..
if can,i jz wana u beside me...
bt i knew dat,it IMPOSIBLE
u hav her in your life,u dun need me anymore...

i tried so hard..force myself to forget u...
i should let u go...izit..?
u r better witot me...mayb,that was d ending for US
take care urself,hopefully u wil getting better life...

goodbye,x dear...
the last time i can called u like this...

my wretch

2009-07-05T02:31:00.001-07:00

hey,guys n babes..
jz for ur imformation here..
im NEW in blogspot..
changing from wretch..

i wil continue blogging,
mayb sumtym wen i free,i wil back to wretch for new update
lots of ppl told me that blogspot was easier to use
n it wil mur convinient..

so try to open a new blog,by starting a new life here ^^
hope u guys wil continue support me...
leaving conment at here if u cn

to inform eveyone too,i had jz sign in as member at facebok
pls add me ! thanksss...
i had updated last post at my wretch,
jz check out if u lyk...

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