Down ! I try to talk to someone what is in my mind But I cant even find a word to describe . How can I present myself maybe just through blogging. I locked myself in a room,cover myself with the blanket This is the way I like to be when I was moody .
Crying is the best medicine, Since when .. I learned to kept everything deeply in my heart? Since when, I felt the pain but I face it alone? I just want everyone to left me alone, because I don't know how to face it. Where is my listener? NOT EVEN ONE ! pity yourself ,who care?
Miss my nanny suddenly, she is the only person. Will hold me tight and wipe off my tears, calling me not to cry anymore. I wanna go back to Kedah and visit her. I wanna stay at there and share everything with my grandparents.
Grow up not that fun ,not like what I imagine.
No more simple life but there is challenging No more laughter but there is responsibility Please be mature and grow up!! I told myself. There should be no more emo but be tough.
I argued with someone this morning,she felt that I has been neglected my studies I don't care at my assignment at all ? Izit true? Honestly I dint, but than maybe I had make a big mistake in the assignment. Human are not always the prefect want, you know? We are not a god,and we might also make a mistake. At least I apologized, I admit maybe I really don't know the format I admit maybe I'm not as hardworking as you
But everyone has their own way,it doesn't mean that I don't care I swear I never simply done my assignment even once. I do really mind and care what you said on me . It's hurt me a lot. heart broken !
ARH, I hate myself being childish all the time. When only I will learn from my lesson? Where is my perception that don't rely on anyone? Sigh, just stand up from where I fall and look forward Sorry grandma,I didn't make my promise. I didn't study hard and put on my effort. I mess up my life and emo for silly things
I promise, I will grow up my mind and mentality I will look everything to more wide range and willing to learn So that one day, I will be able to tell you
Have been so long time din't update my blog. Miss the previous time always blogging. Because that is just the only way for me to say out. Currently felt so empty and helpless,but cant even find a listener. No one will understand, even they are your friends.
Tears drop last night . I hide myself in a blanket. Mind repeated the same question. What can I do ? What is the right thing? What is the best ending ？ I wonder why everything happened so suddenly,just within this few days? Depressed . And I don't like myself emo ing
I do really understand what I want now. But I cant control what is happening around me . No matter how,I might ruin their friendship. I might hurt one of them . How could I balance it? I have no idea.
Sorry for my lies , sorry that I hurt you deeply. Even you don't mad or blame on me, But I do really felt so guilty. For both of you. Tears rolling and rolling. All was my mistake,my fault. Please stay strong no matter how. I don't expect that you might forgive me, but ..
At least don't sad for my anymore ,I don't worth it at all. What I can do now is .. Disappear from his life. Don't ever disturb him again. No more text, no more concern, and no more rely on him . Started my study ,I got many stuff to do So that I can escape from everything.At least a moment also better than no.
With Homeworks. Assignment. Jobs. Projects pilled up Many work to cope with. So that is good right? No time to think nonsense. Time to grow up:( Anyway ,my eyes was swollen this morning ..AWWW It looks so ugly, luckily mammi din't realized.
Is okay. I'm not a child anymore. Facing some problems have to get use to it. Always remember that, no one will accompany you along the way. Please appreciate what you have now. * Finally I know to spell correctly-Appreciate. That's mean I know to be grateful from now on.
I don't need a prefect life,but I just want a simple life. Have some Peace. Lastly, still wanna apologize to you. Sorry ! I wish that one day, you might meet someone that better than me,hundred time . Someone that could chill you, and bring happiness for you. You are such a awesome person. No jokes.
Been Here @ 00:41
♥ Thursday, 29 July 2010
I ♥ Hello Kitty
My life with different kind of friends Im not emo-ing..hee this is just a simple sharing
1.In college: Had been seeing all my friends everyday M56 with hundred funny expression, Jokes around ,playing around without any worries...
Seeing them concern about me, and cheers me up.. While I been drinking some alchohol,Twins stop me While I was emo-ing again,Jamie send a "sayang" for me While I was moody, EE advised me as a listener While I was fine anough, Lrt fooling me around..
And we most enjoyed during English class with Harris paw --> pao snake --> snack brinjal --> bridge ( In hokien both also pronounced as qio~ ==" ) yell ( spelling ) --> wai e iau iau Pause--> Pauls Themselves--> them sell !
See ! Lrt Cutest face with a funny pose
2. My ns life: I spent my 2 months there..We had our activities together all the time Gossip at night,eat and bath together... Although just a short period but it will not be forgetten
Awwwww, miss u guys so much..No jokes We have our own life and future to go on now. But remember to keep in touch always.....=] When is our next gathering ? Im waiting for.. Ryan, the organiser of Pulau Redang plan, was GONE.. * hope someone not to misunderstand again for I wrote him here.=]
Sharon, I might keep my promise to u !! Attending your 18 birthday soon in "somewhere ' else ..hahha Wen, you are invited too..
3. 4yu The longest friendship for four of us.. Undeniably we argue for some silly things almost 1 year When we were in form 5... But time let it pass,we are undoubtedly best buds again
Although we ware seperated in different places Our friendship is still unbreakable by time and distance For Niing in Sp and Yun in Ipoh Take care yourselves there , we will meet up again
Fate brought us together.. Thanks for being so supportive,understanding and accept what I am I did many things to make myself feel better... I really want a new me, a new life I dont want to fail myself or anyone somemore
Last week went to Martini Cafee .. Well,seriously I had a great night before we went home.. I drank alot not for certain reason but because I was thirsty for sang I have finished 3 botels of drinks....><
Anyway tomoro going class ...sigh ** Start Busying with lot of assgiment,homeworks,and exam again... God plsss bless me...not to be so lazy.. Remember it:
"There is no short cut to achievement.Life requires through preparation and yourself"
No matter how worst is it, stil have to face it and be responsible for your future... LIFE have to go on...**