I ♥ Hello Kitty

♥ Friday 28 January 2011

I ♥ Hello Kitty

暑假了一个月，在家真的闷傻了

人总是那么奇怪，反反复复的
拥有时就不珍惜，失去时就特别的珍贵
就像我..

考试的时候多想要假期
想到每天都能早睡迟醒，过着游手好闲的日子
真是幸福!
但时间似乎又太长了
没有朋友的吵闹，又觉得一个月像一年那么难过

回想起来，考试那段时间，那种前所未有的压力
每晚都熬夜在客厅里苦读
背书背得双眼红肿了，想睡却不敢闭上眼
桌子上什么都没有，就只是乱成一团
都是书!!

读了都会脾气不好，背不进时就把纸揉成一团
他，也跟着我一起辛苦了
每天陪我读书读到天亮才能睡
不过，他比我幸福多了，因为玩弹弹堂就是他的力量
我呢，像枯萎的叶子，醒醒睡睡

睡觉的时候，都很不安心

一直想要做到最好

却怎么都斗不过爱睡的意念

不是握着书在桌子上趴着睡，就是赖在沙发上睡

哎，考试真累人!! :((

不过，压力又是努力的动力

没有了考试，怎么会有人去读书呢?

所以人都是为了考试而读书

而不是为了读书而考试..

Been Here @ 23:39

♥ Friday 12 November 2010

I ♥ Hello Kitty

Down ! I try to talk to someone what is in my mind
But I cant even find a word to describe .
How can I present myself maybe just through blogging.
I locked myself in a room,cover myself with the blanket
This is the way I like to be when I was moody .

Crying is the best medicine, Since when ..
I learned to kept everything deeply in my heart?
Since when, I felt the pain but I face it alone?
I just want everyone to left me alone, because I don't know how to face it.
Where is my listener? NOT EVEN ONE !
pity yourself ,who care?

Miss my nanny suddenly, she is the only person.
Will hold me tight and wipe off my tears, calling me not to cry anymore.
I wanna go back to Kedah and visit her.
I wanna stay at there and share everything with my grandparents.

Grow up not that fun ,not like what I imagine.

No more simple life but there is challenging
No more laughter but there is responsibility
Please be mature and grow up!! I told myself.
There should be no more emo but be tough.

I argued with someone this morning,she felt that I has been neglected my studies
I don't care at my assignment at all ? Izit true?
Honestly I dint, but than maybe I had make a big mistake in the assignment.
Human are not always the prefect want, you know?
We are not a god,and we might also make a mistake.
At least I apologized, I admit maybe I really don't know the format
I admit maybe I'm not as hardworking as you

But everyone has their own way,it doesn't mean that I don't care
I swear I never simply done my assignment even once.
I do really mind and care what you said on me .
It's hurt me a lot. heart broken !

ARH, I hate myself being childish all the time.
When only I will learn from my lesson?
Where is my perception that don't rely on anyone?
Sigh, just stand up from where I fall and look forward
Sorry grandma,I didn't make my promise.
I didn't study hard and put on my effort.
I mess up my life and emo for silly things

I promise, I will grow up my mind and mentality
I will look everything to more wide range and willing to learn
So that one day, I will be able to tell you

"Grandma,I'm successful now."

Been Here @ 07:38

♥ Sunday 24 October 2010

I ♥ Hello Kitty

再也看不到你的头像在右下角.
再也看不到你24小时在线上
再也看不到你写的每一句话
再也听不见你吵着我说要出去

也好，这大概就是最好的结局了.
不会去超越那个已被隔开的界限
这就是唯一能够平衡的原地.
我们3个人之间的故事，只是回到原来的岗位
伤害零，也是我目前只想得到的答案.

不说不哭，也不吵不闹.
2个人之间真的不能做朋友，因为彼此伤让害过.
我从不要他原谅我，因为我知道是我错了
但那又怎样? 无能为力.
他问过我，难道我为了让他们的友情重来
我就可以放弃我的幸福吗？
我想都没有想的说“恩，是的。”

爱情没有了，还可以开始新的重来。
友情没有了，就怎么都找不回来.
好朋友更是不容易可以相遇而有的.
对不起，是我摧毁了一切.
只有我退出，就是十全的办法.

我不会再祝福你，因为你已经不需要听到
我不会再去烦你，因为你已经把我删除了
我不会再要你担心，因为我已经学会长大

Been Here @ 12:01

♥

I ♥ Hello Kitty

Have been so long time din't update my blog.
Miss the previous time always blogging.
Because that is just the only way for me to say out.
Currently felt so empty and helpless,but cant even find a listener.
No one will understand, even they are your friends.

Tears drop last night . I hide myself in a blanket.
Mind repeated the same question.
What can I do ? What is the right thing? What is the best ending ？
I wonder why everything happened so suddenly,just within this few days?
Depressed . And I don't like myself emo ing

I do really understand what I want now.
But I cant control what is happening around me .
No matter how,I might ruin their friendship.
I might hurt one of them .
How could I balance it? I have no idea.

Sorry for my lies , sorry that I hurt you deeply.
Even you don't mad or blame on me, But I do really felt so guilty.
For both of you.
Tears rolling and rolling. All was my mistake,my fault.
Please stay strong no matter how.
I don't expect that you might forgive me, but ..

At least don't sad for my anymore ,I don't worth it at all.
What I can do now is ..
Disappear from his life. Don't ever disturb him again.
No more text, no more concern, and no more rely on him .
Started my study ,I got many stuff to do
So that I can escape from everything.At least a moment also better than no.

With Homeworks. Assignment. Jobs. Projects pilled up
Many work to cope with.
So that is good right? No time to think nonsense.
Time to grow up:(
Anyway ,my eyes was swollen this morning ..AWWW
It looks so ugly, luckily mammi din't realized.

Is okay. I'm not a child anymore.
Facing some problems have to get use to it.
Always remember that, no one will accompany you along the way.
Please appreciate what you have now.
* Finally I know to spell correctly-Appreciate.
That's mean I know to be grateful from now on.

I don't need a prefect life,but I just want a simple life.
Have some Peace.
Lastly, still wanna apologize to you. Sorry !
I wish that one day, you might meet someone that better than me,hundred time .
Someone that could chill you, and bring happiness for you.
You are such a awesome person. No jokes.

Been Here @ 00:41

♥ Thursday 29 July 2010

I ♥ Hello Kitty

My life with different kind of friends
Im not emo-ing..hee this is just a simple sharing

1.In college:
Had been seeing all my friends everyday
M56 with hundred funny expression,
Jokes around ,playing around without any worries...

Seeing them concern about me, and cheers me up..
While I been drinking some alchohol,Twins stop me
While I was emo-ing again,Jamie send a "sayang" for me
While I was moody, EE advised me as a listener
While I was fine anough, Lrt fooling me around..

And we most enjoyed during English class with Harris
paw --> pao
snake --> snack
brinjal --> bridge ( In hokien both also pronounced as qio~ ==" )
yell ( spelling ) --> wai e iau iau
Pause--> Pauls
Themselves--> them sell !

See ! Lrt Cutest face with a funny pose

2. My ns life:
I spent my 2 months there..We had our activities together all the time
Gossip at night,eat and bath together...
Although just a short period but it will not be forgetten

Awwwww, miss u guys so much..No jokes
We have our own life and future to go on now.
But remember to keep in touch always.....=]
When is our next gathering ? Im waiting for..
Ryan, the organiser of Pulau Redang plan, was GONE..
* hope someone not to misunderstand again for I wrote him here.=]

Sharon, I might keep my promise to u !!
Attending your 18 birthday soon in "somewhere ' else ..hahha
Wen, you are invited too..

3. 4yu
The longest friendship for four of us..
Undeniably we argue for some silly things almost 1 year
When we were in form 5...
But time let it pass,

we are undoubtedly best buds again

Although we ware seperated in different places
Our friendship is still unbreakable by time and distance
For Niing in Sp and Yun in Ipoh
Take care yourselves there , we will meet up again

Fate brought us together..
Thanks for being so supportive,understanding and accept what I am
I did many things to make myself feel better...
I really want a new me, a new life
I dont want to fail myself or anyone somemore

Been Here @ 00:44

♥ Sunday 11 July 2010

I ♥ Hello Kitty

近来的生活变得很简单，很规律，也很平凡
虽然以前的感觉几乎忘掉了，但也不见得是坏事
老天给了我一个重来的机会，就算未来的路多远都要自己走。。

谢谢老是陪我熬夜读书的雯和Terence
谢谢只会不停对我说加油的小徒弟。。
谢谢每天准时提醒我晚餐时间的Orion Ryan..
谢谢每次刚好坐我旁边桌子的Marick
谢谢那个每天都会很关心我的Ahsa..
谢谢在class里天天都黏着我的Twins和EE...

你们让我的故事有了新的开始!!!。。

当上帝关上了你的门，他必定会再为你打开另一扇窗
失去一样东西，往好的方面看是另一种获得。。
哈哈，我想我最大的收获就是变得比以前开朗吧。
不开心的事就算只埋在心里，几天后也会消化掉。。
虽然没有了过去的他们，但至少现在的我还是很好

偶尔会想念我的啊麽公公，虽然很远的距离。。
只能在电话上传达对彼此的关心，但我知道。。
家人的这份爱，是唯一永远不会改变!
愿老天保佑他们每一天的每一分钟，都是幸福平安！

看吧都说了。。我的生活真的很普通又平凡了！！

Last week went to Martini Cafee ..
Well,seriously I had a great night before we went home..
I drank alot not for certain reason but because I was thirsty for sang
I have finished 3 botels of drinks....><

Anyway tomoro going class ...sigh **
Start Busying with lot of assgiment,homeworks,and exam again...
God plsss bless me...not to be so lazy..
Remember it:

"There is no short cut to achievement.Life requires through preparation and yourself"

No matter how worst is it, stil have to face it and be responsible for your future...
LIFE have to go on...**

Been Here @ 05:32

♥ Saturday 19 June 2010

I ♥ Hello Kitty

2010年6月17日：
终于18岁了，是我跨越人生的另一个阶段
第一次好多人陪我过生日，对我唱生日歌~不同的朋友庆祝了3次
这份感动就算过了再久，依然那么深刻

1st: sharon和rage在rb弄了生日派队给我。。
一个小蛋糕和惊喜收到evon，芸芸和婷盈的wiish...
伟也在旁边陪我合唱“祝我生日快乐”。。
有歌曲和朋友的陪伴，让这一切变得特别感动~

每一年我都会来rb庆祝，因为这里。。
曾经习惯是我度过了5次生日的地方
special Thankss to Sharon :
你是大老远的过来陪我，hugs **

希望这会是新的一个开始~
我的愿望很简单，就是希望我最爱的家人
公公婆婆都会很健康，我永远爱你们

♥

还有身边的每一个人，都会幸福开心
再贪心的要一个愿望，就是希望学业可以考好。
真的谢谢你们。。=）

2nd:
7点多Ryan就载我和sharon到烧烤会在Paradise Beach
那时有些阴天，下了几滴雨。。
大家都一直祈祷，希望老天爷可以休息一天不要下雨。
在海边很开心，除了可以吃自己烤的东西，
还追逐玩冰块。。

我和sharon就坐着看海，聊了很多的心事~
在我真的没有想到的情况下。。。12点准
ryan突然拿着很大的kitty蛋糕，和大家唱着生日歌走到我面前。。
点着蜡烛，要我许愿^^
真的很感动，都不知道应该要说什么了。。

看到他们都那么精心在计划着，要给我这样的一个惊喜
只差我没有哭出来。。
还收到小徒弟的5份kitty礼物和sharon的小杯子。。

一个晚上收下了每一个人的祝福
在海边度过一次最难忘的生日，这才是我18岁收到最好的礼物
那晚老天爷特别宽容，它没有下雨
才让我有机会感受到，原来自己那么幸福
身边还是有那么多关心和疼自己的朋友^^
我再次许了一次愿，我希望：

"Ns的朋友们不要忘记对方，不要忘记在营里的3个月
不管我们都在不同的角落。。这永远是专属于我们自己最美好的回忆。。”

谢谢sharon:你特地那么远也跑来陪我过生日
谢谢Ryan:你那明明就不难看又很可爱的蛋糕
谢谢小徒弟：你那5份的kitty礼物。。。
谢谢雯和伟康：回到家半夜会陪我闲聊一大堆
谢谢你们在场的每一个人：给我那么suprise的生日

3rd:
当天回到班上课，一进去大家都对着我唱生日歌
还是不同的3种版本。。
说真的，我又是一次感动和惊喜
因为真的没有想到，班上也会有人注意到是我生日^^

收下了每一个人的wish..EE还抱着我wish..
还是那个表情，感动到不懂应该怎么表示了。。。
M56，谢谢你们的蛋糕，还有送我那么好的惊喜
I wissh u guys..gud luck and all the best in out Pr study..
We are always the best ..Im greatful to know all of you ><>

Been Here @ 22:37